Hehe, I am now 15.
I dont think its gonna be any different to being 14... but who cares, its an excuse for loadsa presents hehe!
Tuesday, 30 December 2008
Monday, 29 December 2008
My Lastest Fashion Obsession...
Friday, 26 December 2008
Falling...
A crap poem I wrote a few years ago:
I am falling, slipping into darkness
Its cold here, so lonely
Pull me back
Protect me
From the monsters of the night
Dont let them get me
Pull me back
Protect me
From what lies beyond the light
Dont let the reaper call my name
I have fallen, surrounded by darkness
Its cold here, so lonely
The monsters have caught me
The reapers chains, they bind me
They bind me tight and I cant get free...
I am falling, slipping into darkness
Its cold here, so lonely
Pull me back
Protect me
From the monsters of the night
Dont let them get me
Pull me back
Protect me
From what lies beyond the light
Dont let the reaper call my name
I have fallen, surrounded by darkness
Its cold here, so lonely
The monsters have caught me
The reapers chains, they bind me
They bind me tight and I cant get free...
Thursday, 25 December 2008
Till Human Voices Wake Us
Its A Movie starring Guy Pearce and Helena Bonham Carter:
http://www.veoh.com/videos/v10062962FXJPp46w?rank=0&jsonParams=%7B%22numResults%22%3A20%2C%22rlmin%22%3A0%2C%22query%22%3A%22till+human+voices+wake+us%22%2C%22rlmax%22%3Anull%2C%22veohOnly%22%3Atrue%2C%22order%22%3A%22default%22%2C%22range%22%3A%22a%22%2C%22sId%22%3A%223726188682047199232%22%7D&searchId=3726188682047199232&rank=1
http://www.veoh.com/videos/v10062962FXJPp46w?rank=0&jsonParams=%7B%22numResults%22%3A20%2C%22rlmin%22%3A0%2C%22query%22%3A%22till+human+voices+wake+us%22%2C%22rlmax%22%3Anull%2C%22veohOnly%22%3Atrue%2C%22order%22%3A%22default%22%2C%22range%22%3A%22a%22%2C%22sId%22%3A%223726188682047199232%22%7D&searchId=3726188682047199232&rank=1
Oh Shit... Oh Shit Shit Shit
When I was nine I convinced myself I would never love anyone, ever.
I saw love as a sign of weakness, I scorned it.
Yeah, I had crushes on actors and anime characters, because I knew they were out of reach (hehe)
So now what have I gone and done? I have only, gone and fallen in love with one of my best friends and I dont even know why... I also know they would never like me in the same way... so basically I am screwed.
This is soooo weird. Shit.
Again... Oh shit.
And seeing as I have a thing about leaving songs at the end of my posts here is Cool Vibes by Vanilla Ninja:
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=fZ-SdzSVECI
I saw love as a sign of weakness, I scorned it.
Yeah, I had crushes on actors and anime characters, because I knew they were out of reach (hehe)
So now what have I gone and done? I have only, gone and fallen in love with one of my best friends and I dont even know why... I also know they would never like me in the same way... so basically I am screwed.
This is soooo weird. Shit.
Again... Oh shit.
And seeing as I have a thing about leaving songs at the end of my posts here is Cool Vibes by Vanilla Ninja:
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=fZ-SdzSVECI
Another Couple of Movies...
Eternal Summer:
http://www.veoh.com/videos/v16241573ZsKxaEcB?rank=1&jsonParams=%7B%22numResults%22%3A20%2C%22rlmin%22%3A0%2C%22query%22%3A%22eternal+summer%22%2C%22rlmax%22%3Anull%2C%22veohOnly%22%3Atrue%2C%22order%22%3A%22default%22%2C%22range%22%3A%22a%22%2C%22sId%22%3A%22938556641269806902%22%7D&searchId=938556641269806902&rank=2
Sexy Voice And Robo:
http://www.veoh.com/videos/v3545954NRMZSEBR?rank=3&jsonParams=%7B%22numResults%22%3A20%2C%22rlmin%22%3A0%2C%22query%22%3A%22sexy+voice+and+robo%22%2C%22rlmax%22%3Anull%2C%22veohOnly%22%3Atrue%2C%22order%22%3A%22default%22%2C%22range%22%3A%22a%22%2C%22sId%22%3A%221335745277697020928%22%7D&searchId=1335745277697020928&rank=4
http://www.veoh.com/videos/v16241573ZsKxaEcB?rank=1&jsonParams=%7B%22numResults%22%3A20%2C%22rlmin%22%3A0%2C%22query%22%3A%22eternal+summer%22%2C%22rlmax%22%3Anull%2C%22veohOnly%22%3Atrue%2C%22order%22%3A%22default%22%2C%22range%22%3A%22a%22%2C%22sId%22%3A%22938556641269806902%22%7D&searchId=938556641269806902&rank=2
Sexy Voice And Robo:
http://www.veoh.com/videos/v3545954NRMZSEBR?rank=3&jsonParams=%7B%22numResults%22%3A20%2C%22rlmin%22%3A0%2C%22query%22%3A%22sexy+voice+and+robo%22%2C%22rlmax%22%3Anull%2C%22veohOnly%22%3Atrue%2C%22order%22%3A%22default%22%2C%22range%22%3A%22a%22%2C%22sId%22%3A%221335745277697020928%22%7D&searchId=1335745277697020928&rank=4
The Little Match Girl
Its strange, but I watch some really depressing things at Christams.
The Little Match Girl is one of my favourites:
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=yUSzQBaWq0Q&feature=related
The Little Match Girl is one of my favourites:
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=yUSzQBaWq0Q&feature=related
Merry Fucking Christmas!!!
Merry Christmas to y'all!
Jeez my mama got me a mini laptop... which means I can be online more often (and in class hehe) I dont think she understood the severity of the consequences of the idea...
The art set her Koibito bought me was pretty cool too (in case you dont know me - I took art at school, and I draw a lot anyway)
Well, that said... I leave you with a list of my favourite Christmas songs:
Stop The Cavalry - Jona Lewie:
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=EOe18JcatZo
Fairytale of New York - The Pougues:
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Ff3aoSyYOVs&feature=related
Mary's Boy Child - Boney M:
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=7BVtzu59feY (Always reminds me of the Klu Klux Klan crossed over with a strange Eskimo)
Grandma Got Run Over By A Reindeer - Dr Elmo:
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=vPaGQEskSKM
Mistletoe And Wine - Cliff Richard:
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=asq7TW4bRBU
Jeez my mama got me a mini laptop... which means I can be online more often (and in class hehe) I dont think she understood the severity of the consequences of the idea...
The art set her Koibito bought me was pretty cool too (in case you dont know me - I took art at school, and I draw a lot anyway)
Well, that said... I leave you with a list of my favourite Christmas songs:
Stop The Cavalry - Jona Lewie:
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=EOe18JcatZo
Fairytale of New York - The Pougues:
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Ff3aoSyYOVs&feature=related
Mary's Boy Child - Boney M:
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=7BVtzu59feY (Always reminds me of the Klu Klux Klan crossed over with a strange Eskimo)
Grandma Got Run Over By A Reindeer - Dr Elmo:
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=vPaGQEskSKM
Mistletoe And Wine - Cliff Richard:
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=asq7TW4bRBU
Wednesday, 24 December 2008
Hehe, I Meet Another Yaoi Fanboy!!!
Libaries are great places to meet people.
A few months ago I remember an instance when I was reading this story on the computers:
http://www.fanfiction.net/s/4454697/1/
Anyway, there I was reading Frosting when I became paranoid and looked behind me.
A man in his early twenties was reading (and trying to pretend he wasnt) over my shoulder. So I asked him if he liked yaoi. When he said yes, he sat down next to me and we discussed various yaoi and shounen-ai animes and mangas.
I reccomended Junjo Romantica and the Okane Ga Nai manga and OVA, he told me about Gravitation and Haru Wo Daitieta.
As you do.
A few months ago I remember an instance when I was reading this story on the computers:
http://www.fanfiction.net/s/4454697/1/
Anyway, there I was reading Frosting when I became paranoid and looked behind me.
A man in his early twenties was reading (and trying to pretend he wasnt) over my shoulder. So I asked him if he liked yaoi. When he said yes, he sat down next to me and we discussed various yaoi and shounen-ai animes and mangas.
I reccomended Junjo Romantica and the Okane Ga Nai manga and OVA, he told me about Gravitation and Haru Wo Daitieta.
As you do.
Some Random Musings...
1) I have noticed, due to comparing IPods and profiles, that I have in fact got more or less the same taste in music and film as my best friend Katie's Aunt. This disturbed me slightly as I didnt really expect to have much in common with a 42 year old florist from downtown London... but there you go.
2) If indeed Santa is real (I know he isnt obviously, but thinking beyond a rational mind) then he is a real pervert/peadophile. After all, what man would watch little kids while they sleep, be observant enough to know if they have been 'bad' or 'good' Hmmm... I am a shotacon fan and a lolicon fan, nice to know Santa is as well... Except I dont act on it!
3) I dont think that the people at school who call me 'weird' or 'strange' realise that I take it as a compliment, I am proud to be both yet they use it as an insult! It makes me laugh.
2) If indeed Santa is real (I know he isnt obviously, but thinking beyond a rational mind) then he is a real pervert/peadophile. After all, what man would watch little kids while they sleep, be observant enough to know if they have been 'bad' or 'good' Hmmm... I am a shotacon fan and a lolicon fan, nice to know Santa is as well... Except I dont act on it!
3) I dont think that the people at school who call me 'weird' or 'strange' realise that I take it as a compliment, I am proud to be both yet they use it as an insult! It makes me laugh.
Hehe, Kawaii Okama Fangirling...
Basically, as the peice of paper so rightly says. I love Kawaii Okama!
Or in English: I love cute gay guys!
Yeah my mama calls me a 'fag-hag' and my bro (who is gay anyway) calls me his 'Little fruit fly' and everyone else thinks I am crazy.
Maybe I am... hehe! But, if I am crazy...
... I sure as hell am proud of it!
And, I shall leave a song behind.
Jailhouse Rock by Elvis Presley:
Hehe, Movie Time!
Well, I love Aisan movies. I also love BL movies....
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=FxGCVHJ7TRg
...So I love this movie!!!
Hehe, and now for the whole movie on Veoh:
http://www.veoh.com/videos/v934285WrPPdSzW?rank=1&jsonParams=%7B%22numResults%22%3A20%2C%22rlmin%22%3A0%2C%22query%22%3A%22boys+love%22%2C%22rlmax%22%3Anull%2C%22veohOnly%22%3Atrue%2C%22order%22%3A%22default%22%2C%22range%22%3A%22a%22%2C%22sId%22%3A%221446739388423705600%22%7D&searchId=1446739388423705600&rank=2
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=FxGCVHJ7TRg
...So I love this movie!!!
Hehe, and now for the whole movie on Veoh:
http://www.veoh.com/videos/v934285WrPPdSzW?rank=1&jsonParams=%7B%22numResults%22%3A20%2C%22rlmin%22%3A0%2C%22query%22%3A%22boys+love%22%2C%22rlmax%22%3Anull%2C%22veohOnly%22%3Atrue%2C%22order%22%3A%22default%22%2C%22range%22%3A%22a%22%2C%22sId%22%3A%221446739388423705600%22%7D&searchId=1446739388423705600&rank=2
Me & Matchmaking Expertise...
Hehe, enter master matchmaker!
I somehow managed to set my brother Jacob (19) up with my ex-boyfriend (now one of my bezzies) Craig (17)
*Cutsey grin and fangirl-style squeal*
Yeppies, I had known Jake liked my best mate for a while, and it was kind of obvious that Craig liked him as well, so I asked Craig out because he never turns down dates (aww) so they could get to know each other better (Jake is the steryotypical protective older bro, he likes to meet my boy/girlfriends hehe)
Anyway I told Craig and Jake together that they liked each other...
...and Bingo! *manic laughter*
They make a real good couple... hehe.
I somehow managed to set my brother Jacob (19) up with my ex-boyfriend (now one of my bezzies) Craig (17)
*Cutsey grin and fangirl-style squeal*
Yeppies, I had known Jake liked my best mate for a while, and it was kind of obvious that Craig liked him as well, so I asked Craig out because he never turns down dates (aww) so they could get to know each other better (Jake is the steryotypical protective older bro, he likes to meet my boy/girlfriends hehe)
Anyway I told Craig and Jake together that they liked each other...
...and Bingo! *manic laughter*
They make a real good couple... hehe.
Freedom...
Before I cant rant about freedom, I must understand it.
What is freedom? The right to choose the life we live, without being afraid of the reactions of others. The ability to fly away from the harsh reality of the world, money and jobs and the law and the Government.
Away from praying eyes and CCTV. To join tribes and wolves on land. To join the swooping eagles in the sky. To join mermaids and dolphins in the sea.
Without having to worry, without having to fight or cry or fear or hide.
Freedom is being able to believe what you want to believe, free from peer pressure and steryotyping.
Freedom is being able to say what you want to say without being afraid of hurting someone you love.
That is freedom, freedom is the ability to hope, to dream and to follow your dreams.
I want to escape, to be free.
That said, I will leave you with a song, because I am nice.
When Indians Cry by Vanilla Ninja:
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=8R4OtNfG3_o&feature=related
What is freedom? The right to choose the life we live, without being afraid of the reactions of others. The ability to fly away from the harsh reality of the world, money and jobs and the law and the Government.
Away from praying eyes and CCTV. To join tribes and wolves on land. To join the swooping eagles in the sky. To join mermaids and dolphins in the sea.
Without having to worry, without having to fight or cry or fear or hide.
Freedom is being able to believe what you want to believe, free from peer pressure and steryotyping.
Freedom is being able to say what you want to say without being afraid of hurting someone you love.
That is freedom, freedom is the ability to hope, to dream and to follow your dreams.
I want to escape, to be free.
That said, I will leave you with a song, because I am nice.
When Indians Cry by Vanilla Ninja:
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=8R4OtNfG3_o&feature=related
Twilight: Good, but oh so overrated...
Hey, hey don't get me wrong now Twilight was actually pretty good. Robert Pattinson is a good actor and the music and special effects were amazing... but the whole movie was just so hyped up.
When the book came out, I loved it... I love vampires and romances are pretty cool. So the two combined kinda worked for me, but now three-quaters of the worlds female population under the age of 20 are either squeeling Cullen fangirls or total haters who think Stephanie Meyer should go kick the bucket.
The last quater (i.e me and some others) are just totally indifferent, good movie, okay book. Not the best but not an epic fail. Predictible but well-written.
Done.
When the book came out, I loved it... I love vampires and romances are pretty cool. So the two combined kinda worked for me, but now three-quaters of the worlds female population under the age of 20 are either squeeling Cullen fangirls or total haters who think Stephanie Meyer should go kick the bucket.
The last quater (i.e me and some others) are just totally indifferent, good movie, okay book. Not the best but not an epic fail. Predictible but well-written.
Done.
Yaoi-addicted, crazy as hell panda-chan...
Well, the title really ought to sum me up... Yaoi is my drug (along with music, ciggerettes and 4chan...jeez Im a fucking druggie lol) I am absoloutly crazy (well not officially, I havent been diagnosed with insanity or been sectioned yet but theres time...lol) and the panda-chan part is just one of my many nicknames (im an insomniac and apparently the circles round my eyes make me look kinda panda-ish)
All in all... well you can chain me up and put me in a padded cell, or you can go with the flow baby!
You will hear more from me later... hehe but I will leave you with one of my favourite songs.
Dangerzone by Vanilla Ninja:
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=LV3_ovyW7Gc&feature=related
All in all... well you can chain me up and put me in a padded cell, or you can go with the flow baby!
You will hear more from me later... hehe but I will leave you with one of my favourite songs.
Dangerzone by Vanilla Ninja:
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=LV3_ovyW7Gc&feature=related
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